Gratitude is one one of those things that I feel changes from moment to moment.
Some are grateful for graduating High School. Others are grateful that they made it out of the low income neighborhood they grew up in. I could not image being grateful for not being in jail or dead. I am personally grateful every day for just getting through the same without going completely crazy. I am grateful for the hard times in life.
There are big moments of gratitude and smaller ones. But the point is to always be grateful for whatever is going right, or wrong, in your life. When things are going right it’s amazing. When things are wrong that means there is room for growth, change and gratitude.
I am devoid of color.
I wasn’t always that way. I used to gravate towards COLOR. I loved the pinks, the blues, the reds. I even had a bright YELLOW car in my hay day.
One color I never liked, is orange. Orange is such an ugly color. Nothing looks good in orange. Even the oranges in the grocery store never seem appealing.
Even though I wear mostly grays, blacks and an occasional navy blue I still have this one ugly ass orange shirt hanging in my closet. It’s for those days that I feel like I need a POP of color, even though I know I’ll look like shit.
15 years ago I was 18.
At 18 I was not the type that had it all figured out but I definitely had big dreams. Dreams I had no idea how to attain. Dreams that did not include a marriage, kids or still living in my hometown. Then the dreams I didn’t know I had became about home ownership, becoming debt free and making sure my children become decent adults.
It has been surreal thus far. I have no idea how I got to where I am and I have no idea where I am going.
I wonder what life will look like at 48.
As the year comes to an end I find myself increasingly unmotivated.
Unmotivated to workout.
Unmotivated to read.
Unmotivated to watch my favorite shows.
Unmotivated to do the things I have enjoyed over the last few years. I just feel tired this year. 2017 has been a hectic year and I honestly can not wait for it to be over.
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One of my first posts on this blog is about my ten year old car and how much I loved it despite its weird noises. I knew as soon as I hit publish that I was not going to have the car year later. But I did not expect a month later that I would be saying….
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Once upon a time I used to hear that world and think super heroes. Fire fighters, police officers; the military.
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I am a bleeding heart.
I am also a pretty tough cookie. I have no time for excuses and do not want to hear your bullshit, for the most part.
But ultimately I find myself feeling really bad for the people who know no better.
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